Reflective Sarah

Pumping in a back room during shift change. My postpartum belly hanging out. I packed my dinner. My NICU badge hanging off my shorts. Random stuff thrown into my bag.  I'm exhausted but I'm so happy he's alive. 

For the past few months, little Samuel has been throwing parties in my belly every morning between 3:30 and 5. I usually can't get back to sleep after.  Well...bit appears only one of us is sticking to that schedule 😬 I am awake but he's perfectly sound asleep!!  *No tubes* 💗💗💗

Well this week has been ... Interesting. On Monday I noticed my arm hurt at my previous IV site. It was sore and also intensely painful right at the IV site. So I just waited it out and observed... Overnight the pain woke me up twice! In the morning I knew I had to be seen. I went to urgent care. They ordered an ultrasound. The ultrasound showed too blood clots--one in my brachial vein and one in my subclavian vein (a DVT!).  They had me go to the ER. So I went to Frederick. They sent me home with increased dosages of Lovenox, 80 mg twice a day.  Starting the next day I had groin pain. And by Thursday I was dizzy. Soooo back to urgent care I went. They did an ultrasound and a CT scan and blood test. I'm anemic, but nothing was wrong. Whew! All I needed to do was 20 minutes on the monitor with baby before I left. Well... I started having contractions. They're my usual evening contractions but they alarmed the midwife enough that she wanted to keep me and give me more IV fluids....

I saw Dr Hodor today for my 30-week appointment. He was so happy that I have made it this far! I was at labor and delivery 2 days ago with bleeding and contractions again, and the imaging report from the ultrasound was very frightening.  Luckily my ultrasound at Dr hoder's office was far more promising. Baby looked good, it was measuring ahead, and everything looked okay.  AFI: 18.3 AUA: Measuring 32w1d even though I'm 30+2 Weight: 4lbs 6 oz My sub-chorionic hematoma is still big. 8.5x9x5 My cervix is 4cm Dr Hodor says he is comfortable seeing me every two weeks for now, because the baby looks so good. 🙌🙌🙌

I'm trying to find a favorite spinach Quiche revipe that isn't too complicated...  https://www.allrecipes.com/recipe/16664/spinach-quiche/

It all started when I went to the bathroom at 4:00 on Thursday before dropping Liam off at his dad's. I started peeing and the pee felt warm and when I looked down the toilet was full of blood. I screamed, without even knowing, no no no!  I have had my hospital bag packed since 18 weeks, so it was already in my car. I grabbed my insurance card, and a book off the counter, pulled all my blinds down and walked to the car with Liam, shaking. In the car ride to Matt's I called my doctor and waited for a call back. I explained the situation to Liam, that I might be going to the hospital that night and might be in the hospital for a few days or even a few weeks. I gave him a big hug when I dropped him off at Matt's and an extra hug 💗💗 Tom was working, so I drove myself to the hospital in Frederick. I called Jill and she talked to me during the whole ride down to distract me and keep me cheerful. I knew I was bleeding, but I didn't know how bad it was until I got to the park...