Reflective Sarah

He weighs 24.7 pounds, at 17 months old (16 months adjusted) 

  6   oz   Center Cut Boneless Pork Chops (4 chops) 1   cup   blanched almond meal 1   large   egg, whisked 1   tablespoon   garlic powder 1   tablespoon   onion powder 4   tablespoons   Parmesan cheese  -  omit if whole30/paleo/dairy-free 1/2   tablespoon   salt 1/2   tablespoon   pepper nonstick cooking spray  -  if using air fryer only Preheat oven to 350 degrees F. To a plate, add almond meal. Add dried spices and Parmesan cheese, if using. Mix well.  **Sub in 1 tbsp ranch dressing!** *  To a separate bowl, whisk one egg and add to a bowl (use a bowl large enough to for pork chops). Dip each pork chop into egg wash, and then coat in almond meal mixture. Once all four chops are breaded, refrigerate for 10-minutes before cooking. To a parchment lined baking sheet, add your four breaded pork chops. Cook for 30 minutes, flipping half-way through.

Yogurt with crumbled keto pumpkin bread on top! SO GOOD.

Do we treat God like an Amazon fulfillment center? Are we just tired of waiting on Him to fulfill our expectations? Oftentimes God doesnt fulfill our desires because they are made of us. And not full of Him. Are we basing our desires and wishes around God's plan for us?  The context of Christmas is joy and hope. To rejoice. As it says in Isaiah, look up to the Lord and rejoice in Him. in Hebrew its called prophetic perfect tense. To say rejoice doesn't just mean now; it refers to all the futures in which God will make things right.  Isaiah 54:1, then Galatians and Acts have a connected story, the barren woman always has hope. The hope doesn't always look like what we expected. Fulfillment in life isn't just from having the children you wish for but from being fulfilled in Christ.  Proverbs 13:13 Hope deferred makes the heart sick but a longing fulfilled is the tree of life  Stop looking at what you don't have and rejoice in what He has given you. 

There are some days that I miss being married so much I could cry.   I miss that youthful abandon of my partnership with him, embarking on this life together, making new traditions, hopes and dreams with someone.    I miss our inside jokes and I miss his dinners. I miss remembering to pick something up for him when I would go shopping. I miss the comfort and familiarity of having a partner in everything that I did.  Why is it that something as stupid as christmas decoration I got half off on the Day After Christmas in 2014 can bring me to tears? I bought decorations for the dreams that would never come true, in the house that we would never have.  And now I drop my baby off on Sundays and I see a beautiful house  That is not mine. With their beautiful Christmas tree.  That is not mine. A husband that is not mine.  And although I trust God's plan in my life and I am at peace with our separate paths, some days I still sit and cry. 

Salmon dollops.... salmon, cottage cheese and romaine  Keto Banana Bread !